I like to write. I don't write for others, I write for myself. I know I am not perfect in my writing skills, I'm still improving them but I hope you enjoy and if you want you can give me some feedback. I like constructive criticism.This is a short story that I wrote for one of my classes in college. We were told that we need to do research on a career for this story. So I chose firefighters. I know, I know... all fire fighters are hot! Don't worry this one is too!I hope you enjoy it.
The
Woman
I
felt the alarm before I heard it. I vaulted out of my bed in a room that I
shared with 4 other men. Everyone else was already running towards the door. I
wasn’t far behind them but this was my first call and I was praying I
remembered all my training. After months of fake drills and tons of training I
was finally assigned to the firehouse in Logan. Here we go…. I’m nervous.
Ninety
seconds later I had my 60 pounds of gear on and was the last one on the fire
engine. As I put on the headphones I heard the dispatcher giving instructions
to the engineer.
“House fire, female in her mid-20s reported a neighboring
house.” I heard all of this through the headphones as we were pulling out of
the garage.
“Rescue 70 in route. ETA approxamently 3 minutes.” 3
minutes…. I had 3 minutes… I can do this. I have worked hard to be here. I can
do this. 2 minutes… I broke the training record. I can do anything. I closed my
eyes and took a deep breath. 1 minute…. I opened my eyes to see the house in
the distance. The flames reached above the roof of the house. The flames were
licking the sides of the houses that were built too close to each other. I
never want to live somewhere where I can see into my neighbor’s bathroom.
The engine stopped and everyone was moving all at once.
Moved right alongside them, my training coming back to me without me having to
really think about it. I unbuckled my belt and followed my comrades outside.
The heat from the flames felt like I had walked into an oven. I was handed a
hose and we ran towards the oven like flames.
“Mac, we’ve gotta get this hose to the side of the house.
We need to protect the houses on both sides.” Smith was yelling something that
I already knew. I was right behind him with the hose. In a matter of seconds
water was being mixed with the flames. I was burning up in my suit but the
water that splashed against my cheeks kept me moving towards the house.
As I moved towards the house I saw something in the
basement. A shadow moved across the window. The bottom of the basement window
lined up perfectly with the ground. A black folding chair came flying out the
window. It landed in the soggy grass near inches from where I was standing with
the hose. Glass scattered the ground. Smoke came billowing out of the
window. I knew I needed to act as chairs
don’t come flying out of windows on their own. Smoke inhalation is the cause of
about 50% of deaths involved with fires. Someone is in the house. I disregarded
all of the training that I had spent months learning. I knew the consequences
of running into a burning building without a plan and approval from the
captain. The disciplinary action that the captain could take would end my
career as a firefighter before it even started. But it didn’t matter, there was
someone in there, throat burning and smoke choking. I have to do this.
“Smith, take over.” Smith was behind me, helping control
the hose. He came forward as I walked methodically towards the now broken
window. Black smoke was billowing out of the windows. As I approached, I heard
Captain yelling my name. The protocol ringing in my ears. But I kept moving forward, time seemed to
slow down to an almost stop. I have to
get to whoever is in the basement. The sweat was rolling in rivers down my
neck and back as I finally approached the now broken window.
I leaned in close and saw someone laying on the floor. I
turned to see Smith and Captain running at me, yelling my name. But I looked
back at the person laying on the basement floor, covered in a blanket and I
didn’t even have to think. At least the blanket will protect her. I ran to the
side of the house, adjusting my face mask to fit snuggly against my mouth and face.
My oxygen tank didn’t bounce as I took each step. I knew that my equipment is
where it should be, I learned that my first day at training.
I approach the back door, there seems to be no immediate
danger. I lifted my booted foot and kick at the door, it snapped in half,
creating a whole big enough for me to enter. I adjusted my yellow helmet and again
surveyed my surroundings for danger. The fire seemed to be contained solely on
the other side of the house.
I lifted my foot and took my first step into my first
burning house. The vision of a person lying on the basement floor motivated me
to keep moving forward. The flames are loud, even from the other side of the
house. I again heard my name being yelled. I turned to see Smith in the doorway
behind me. He nodded his head and followed me the rest of the way into the
house. The nod, he was there to help me and do what was needed to help me save this
woman. We were going into the house blindly and without a plan. I knew that
Smith doesn’t do anything without making a mental pro and con list, but he
followed me none the less.
There was a crashing sound from somewhere as my hand
landed on the railing that headed downstairs. It hadn’t taken me long to find
the basement in the house. It was the first thing I saw after I turned away
from Smith’s nod of backing. It was right in the entry way from the back door.
The first couple of steps creaked under my feet. There was another crashing
noise, this one seemed to be closer. But I have to get to the basement,
someone’s life is at stake. I saw the blanket cover the person on the floor and
I moved forward some more.
Step, step, step. As Smith and I finally reach the bottom
step I look around. I could only see outlines of the objects in the room but I
didn’t notice any of it. I saw where the broken window is, and started moving
towards it. My radio on my shoulder cracked and I jumped I am still not use to
having that in my ears. I heard Captain’s voice on the other end.
“Okay Mac, you can do this. Smith is there to help you. We
don’t have a plan because you didn’t follow protocol. But let’s get the person
and get out. We don’t need any heroes. We talked to the neighbor and she said
there was only one woman living here. Let’s be safe.” Captain always ended his
messages with “Let’s be safe.” I couldn’t imagine being in charge of all of us,
our physical and emotional wellbeing. So I took a step towards the window and
there was another crash from above, this time coming near the stairway. Smoke
was building up as I walked towards the woman lying on the floor.
I found her. She was covered with a blanket, only her
hand could be seen under the blanket. I scoped her up, blanket and all just as
I heard another crash coming from upstairs. I turned to Smith, his outline
barely visible with all the smoke. He seemed to be gesturing towards the
stairs. With the weight of the woman in my arms, I headed towards the stairs. I
could hear wood cracking and popping. The way out of the house seemed to take a
lot longer than coming into the house. My muscles shook not only from the extra
weight but from the lack of adrenaline that seemed to be dissipating quickly
out of my blood stream. As I started to head up the stairs my radio cracked
again, this time I was more prepared for it. Captain’s voice was heard again,
“Mac, Smith, did you get her?” I wasn’t able to reach my
radio so Smith answered for me.
“Ten four. We are on the stairs on our way out.” His
response was quick and worried. I didn’t know what he was worried about. The
fire is on the other side of the house and we were almost out. I could feel the
worrying coming off Smith in waves behind me. He only worried like this for two
things, one would be for his children and the second being high stress
situations like we are currently in. I moved up the stairs at a quicker pace.
“The fire has spread, it’s headed your way.” The
Captain’s voice rang in our ears. Now I knew. The last few steps seemed to take
an eternity to get up.
As I exited the door with the woman in my arms, I saw all
the flames. We were surrounded by them. The back door is only a few feet from
us but it was surrounded with flames. The orange flames licked the side of the
door and I quickly evaluated how I was going to exit the house. The temperature
was rising as the fire got closer. I couldn’t smell anything due to my mask but
I imagined the smell of wood burning and smoke. I looked down at the woman in my
arms, blanket still covering her face and body, everything but her arm hung
limp, like a dead fish dangling in my arms. I looked towards Smith who was behind me, his
face was calm and his brain was working fast. He yelled at me, “The door is
right there. Go through it. The flames haven’t damaged the structure. Just go.”
I went first and Smith followed. I took one step and a huge popping noise
sounded. The next step I took made a cracking noise. My third step I was under
the door frame, a crashing sound came from behind me as I was thrust forward
out of the house. Everything went black.
I felt the alarm before I heard it. I vaulted out of bed
but hands were holding me in place. I heard Captain in my ear once again.
“Everything’s fine son. Relax.” I laid back down and it was then that I
realized that I was not in my bed at the fire house. Pain seared through my
body. Every muscle in my body ached. I moved my toes, they were working just
fine. I moved my feet, I could still feel them. I bent my knees, they worked. I
did this through the rest of my body. Everything seems to be fine, except that
everything hurt.
“Brad Macdonald, do you know where you are?”
“The hospital?” The doctor’s flash light flashed in my eyes,
I blinked it away. My throat was sore, it burned.
“I think you’ll be fine.” The doctor started writing on
my chart, “Just take it slow, you have a concussion.” I sat up slowly. My heard
started to spin.
“What about the woman? Is she okay? Where is she?” I
couldn’t remember what had happened after the cracking noise.
“She is here at the hospital.” The doctor responded
without looking up from my chart. He wrote a few things and then turned and
walked out of the room.
The Captain moved toward me. “She is being flight rescued
to the burn unit in Salt Lake City, she was badly burned on her arm. The
blanket protected the rest of her body. She will be there for a while.” I laid
back down and relaxed into my pillow.
“When can I go home?” I was anxious to get out of the
hospital. The anxiety of not knowing what happened was eating me. I just wanted
to get back home, or to the firehouse.
“They want to keep you over night.” He looked over at me.
“You know, you should have told me what you were planning.”
“Cap, there was no planning. I saw her lying on the floor
through the window and I had to move. I was in the house without even thinking
about it.” I looked at him square in the eyes. I know I did the right thing.
The Captain sighed. He nodded his head, patted me knee and turned away saying, “Well,
planning is important.” I knew he was not telling me something because he
wouldn’t even look at me.
“What happened?” I whispered, my thoughts turned to
Smith, he was right behind me. I saw his green eye peering at me behind his
yellow helmet just as I turned to go out the door. “How is Smith doing?” I knew
the answer before Captain opened his mouth. “Smith didn’t make it.” He finally
turned and looked me straight in the eyes. His brown ones filled with tears
which never slide down his cheek. There was a moment of silence. I saved a
woman but ended up getting the best firefighter in the house killed. The thought
of protocol seemed to scream at me. I killed him. It was my fault. Smith is
dead. Captain cleared his throat and said, walking out the door. “Get some
sleep. I want to see you in my office tomorrow.” He walked out of the room.
“You
should not have gone into that building until it was safe. We would have set a
plan and taken action in a safe way.” Captain sat a little straighter in his
chair. He didn’t yell at me that would have been easier to take then his soft
spoken disappointment. I knew how he felt about safety and protocol. “I sent in
Smith with you to help and to keep you safe. You are still a rookie and didn’t
know what you were doing.” He wasn’t yelling. It was a stern voice that
demanded no back talk or excuses.
“I’m sorry sir.” I was sitting in a chair
facing him. He sighed and sat forward, the leather squeaking as he did. The
sound reminded me of the cracks and pops from the fire. I saw Smith’s face in
my mind’s eye right before I headed towards the door frame.
“I just want to keep you safe.” He rubbed his eyes like
he hadn’t gotten any sleep the night before. “I’m giving you the rest of the
week off. I expect you here for your next shift.”
“Yes sir.” I stood up to leave. I felt guilty for running
in without informing Captain about the situation, but I had no choice. And
Smith was dead because of my choice. I didn’t want the woman to die if I didn’t
get her out of there.
“Has anyone told Kara?” Kara is Smith’s wife and I did
not want to be the person to bring the news of their lost, although that was
what I deserved after getting him killed.
“She was told last night.” He rubbed his eyes again, “Her
and the kids are over at her sister’s house in Nibley.” My stomach tightened, I
thought I was going to be sick. My head started pounding as I stood to leave
the Captain’s office. Every step I took towards the door reminded me of the
night before, before everything went black. As I reached for the door knob
Captain stopped me.
“Mac, you did good. You saved that woman’s life.” My
throat tightened, Jared and Bryce’s father will not die in vain. I am going to
and see this woman, it can’t be in vain. These thoughts filled my mind as the
door clicked behind me.
“Can I see her please?” I was standing at the nurse’s
station on the 3rd floor of the University Of Utah Health Care. I
drove 2 hours from Logan to see her and I wasn’t leaving until I did. I had
searched the reports for 30 minutes to find out her name and what happened to
her.
“Sorry sir, only family.”
I
took a deep breath and closed my eyes. My head was starting to hurt again. When
I opened my eyes there were small black spots in my vision. I blinked them
away. I hadn’t slept at all, not with the knowledge that Smith would no longer
be holding his wife and two kids. Excuse me Ma’am, I am the one that got her
sent here. I would like to see her and apologize.”
I
could see the look of shock on her face. It was gone as quickly as it came. “Look,
I was the firefighter that pulled her out of the house, and we were both
injured and I just want to see her and make sure she is okay.” A look of pity
crossed her face. The guilt was boiling in my throat, threatening to throw it
all up. As I looked at the nurse I could tell that I was wearing her down.
“Please.” I tried one more time. The nurse sighed and
said, “Room 347. She had grafts placed on her right arm. It will take a lot of
time to heal but she will be fine. ”
“Thank you.” I patted the counter, turned
and walked away. As I followed the numbers down the hall way to Jessica
Mayfair’s room I thought about the report that I read. Jessica Mayfair is in
her mid-twenties. The neighbor that the Captain talked to had given more
information then what was really needed. She is a preschool teacher and loves
working at Woodruff Elementary School. This
brought me comfort because in order to be a preschool teacher you had to be
patient….right? I thought of Smith’s death, with a preschool teacher his death
won’t be in vain because she teaches the future generations.
I was finally facing room 347. I give a knock quietly to
let the occupants know that someone was going to enter. I took a deep breath
and turn the knob. I didn’t know what to expect. As the door swung open I saw
the woman asleep in her bed. The room was dark except for a small light from
the bathroom. The air held tension. It smelled of cleanliness and sickness all
at the same time. Machines were beeping and pumping as she slept. They were
attached to her everywhere it seemed like. The responsibility for her condition
rose in my throat and I quickly swallowed it away. I slowly and quietly walk
towards the bed. There was a tray of food sitting uneaten on the counter. No
one else appeared to have been in the room with her. As I looked down at her I
could see how beautiful she is and couldn’t help but think how lucky her
preschool students were. I sat down on the ugly brown chair that sat in the
corner at the foot of the bed. As I sat
it make a squeaky noise.
“Who are you?” I turned to see Jessica looking at me. The
noise of the chair must have woken her up. I fumbled for words.
“I’m Brad.” I stood up, feeling a little awkward. The brown
chair squeaking again, “Brad Macdonald. You don’t know me.” I stopped there. I
looked over at her. Her green eye seemed cloudy, like they were filled with fire,
like the fires I was fighting. She looked at me with more confusion on her
face.
“I just came to see how you are doing.” She turned her
head away from me. Her red hair was damp and braided along the side of her
face. Her arm was heavily bandaged.
“Who are you?” She asks again. The pain was clear on her
face. I didn’t have the dignity that I had when I met with the Captain earlier.
I looked down at the floor. I didn’t know how I was ever going to face her.
Looking at her face I wondered if I made a mistake coming here. I didn’t
prepare a speech or an apology or anything. Bail raised in my throat. I run
into buildings that are on fire but I couldn’t face this one woman. I thought
of Smith’s last words to me, “Just go.”
“I am the fire fighter who pulled you from the basement
and put you in this pain.” Words were just coming out without me thinking of
them beforehand. “I moved as fast as I could to get to you. I saw the chair fly
through the window and I didn’t even think. We have protocol and I didn’t
follow it. It’s all my fault.” I finished in a low whisper. The guilt was
eating me alive. I didn’t know if I could ever look at the cloudy green eyes or
the red hair that reminded me of the flames the licked the door frame right
before we walked through it.
“I came here to tell you that I am sorry that you are
here. That I couldn’t get to you on time. I’m sorry…” The words caught in my
throat. I couldn’t go on. I had no right to ask this woman for forgiveness. I
deserve this guilt and pain. The room started spinning once again and I sat
back down on the ugly chair.
There was silence for what felt like an eternity. I
thought she had fallen back to sleep but when I looked up at her, her cloudy
green eyes looked directly into mine. Tears filled her eyes.
“You’re right, this is your fault.” She rolled over and
pushed a button on her remote. I just sat there. I didn’t know what to do. I
stood to leave. There was no more guilt, I just felt empty.
“I’m sorry.” I walked towards the door when a nurse
walked into the room. I left the door open and as I was walking away I heard
her cry, “Just take it away. Make it stop.” Tears came to my eyes at that
moment as I pushed the down arrow for the elevator.
“It’s been over a month since your first fire. How does
it feel?” Captain asked as he slapped me on the back. I didn’t know how to
respond. I just nodded and smiled. It’s been a month since Smith passed died in
my first fire. How does it feel?
“Look Mac, it wasn’t your fault. Fires are unpredictable.
It wasn’t your fault that you were blown out the door. It’s not her fault that
she was in the basement. It’s no one’s fault.
These things just happen.”
“Yeah I know.” I did know that but how do I convince
myself of that? I picked up my sweater, pulling it over my head as I heard
someone walk into the room that the captain and I were talking in.
“Mac, you have a visitor.” I finished pulling the sweater
over my head.
“Who is it?” No one ever comes to see me.
“It’s a woman!” Crane, another firefighter responded in a
teasing voice. Captain smiled, patted me on the shoulder. I don’t know any woman,
my whole life is work. Who is it?
“Smith would have loved this.” Captain said with a grin
on his face, “He would have been out the door and spying on this woman
already.”
I walked into the kitchen of the firehouse and could hear
a woman’s voice, soft sweet, the sound of a preschool teacher. A thought perked
in my mind, I once visited a preschool teacher in the hospital. I pictured the
red braid and cloudy green eyes. As I rounded the corner I spotted a blanket of
red hair. I paused at the door. It couldn’t be her. She hates me. She doesn’t
what to ever see me again. I want to just run away. But I’m not a coward, I run
into burning houses. Captain was right, Smith would be teasing me endlessly if
I ran away. So for Smith I squared my shoulders and said, “Hello Jessica.” She
turned around and looked at me. Her green eyes were no longer cloudy but they
still held that fire. She wore a glove on her right hand and a long sleeved
shirt. I could imagine the scars from her burns under them. She stood up and
walked toward me.
“I know that I’m the last person that you want to see
right now but I just came to tell you how sorry I am. I should not have said
what I said to you.” She paused looking down the table next to her. “I was in a
lot of physical pain and I wanted to blame someone for it. You walked in and
handed that to me.” She looked up at me. I could see remorse in her face. The
worry lines on her forehead were pulled together, a single tear ran down her
cheek. I didn’t know what to think. The knot of guilt that has been in my
stomach for the past month seemed to be loosened.
“I
am really sorry about the pain that I must have caused you.” I looked into her
fiery eyes and smiled. Another knot of guilt that I was caring was loosen with
the smile that spread across her apologetic face.